Don't discount the good.

So, I'm learning a balancing act in my life. I'm working on keeping up a social life, a budding relationship, and a career. I don't want either to get out of hand, but I'm trying to work on this relationship and keep it balanced. I don't want to get so into him that I make the mistake of rushing it, but I also don't want to drift toward the other end and be extremely critical. I think that its going to be a quick balancing act.

He has told his friends that he's taking it slow with me, and I really like that. But also, I like the idea of just letting things simmer and get good. Just taking time and making it good. I really like him.

There are some things that I have a concern about, but I'm thinking that its just because he's a guy. But, as long as he respects my boundaries to stop when I need him to, then I'm fine. But I think that in about two weeks, we should start talking about whats going on with us. I'm not really good about broaching the subject.

Another thing that I was thinking though, is that there are a few guys that are pricks. Like TSgt Green and SSgt Reis. They are cool sometimes, but every now and then, I want to get a lil ghetto on them. But Reis was making fun of me today because I made some mistakes and Green was a doushe to me yesterday because of a miscommunication, but it got me to thinking. When people act that way to me, there's usually a reason that people do that, there has to be some little truth to what they say. So instead of getting pissed or discounting it when they tear me down, why not take a look at it and see if there's a way that I can use something it in to build back up.

For example, when I kept making dumb decisions, Reis asked me if I was ready to be an instructor because of them. Then I thought about it and it really bothered me, but then I thought about it and, even if he's joking, I really do need to get my shit together. Being an instructor will necessitate that I been shit hot!

So, I'm getting in the books, getting my shit together! Ugh! Here I come.