Leadership and New a Move

I've decided to take a new turn in this whole break up issue. Sitting around moping about it isn't going to change my life, its only going to depress me. So, I'm going to move toward the things that lift me up and make me feel alive. What are those things? My management class, possibly making staff, and being an instructor.

I've mentioned before that I've wasted so much time on men, whether its chasing them or trying to make a relationship work. I've also mentioned that I need to get my life straight. Well, I was thinking that it would be when I get back to OKC; however, it starts now. How does it start? What do I need to do? I need to focus on my career, my schooling, etc. Things that make me feel good about myself, not an unhappy relationship.

I keep thinking, "How will my next boyfriend come?" But I think that will work itself out. Mental discipline is something that I'm also learning. Thoughts will cross my mind that I don't want to be there, but instead of trying to change my mind about it, I just keep them from entering my brain, making the mental decision that I will not focus on those thoughts because they bring me down, establish wrong priorities or just aren't healthy. When I do this, its interesting because, somehow, the right priorities enter my mind.

So, that's the new move. Whats leadership got to do with it? Well, I'm thinking a lot about the kind of leader that I want to be. How do I want my airmen and students to see me? How do I want them to act? Well, I've decided what kind of leader I want to be: I want to balance both my bosses' needs with helping my airmen to grow. I want to put others before myself and I want to exemplify my values. I want my actions to add up to my words. I want people to respect me and take me seriously.

I love this management class because its provided me with all sorts of tools to help when I become a leader; its definitely a great thing. Like treating people good, caring for others, knowing that I am not more important than others. Being a servant to everyone.

I can do it, I can put myself aside so that others can grow and live. Still getting the mission done.